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Vegetatin and movin on

Been quiet of late with life. I haven't had a job for well over a month now. Went to a job fair recently and put out some resumes, was a good fair lot of businesses there. In my time off i've though about going back to college for a half year to take Geographical Information Systems (GIS) cause it seems to be a good field to be in, pay is well etc. So i've been crunchin numbers etc.

Been spendin my time playin socom and tryin not to spend much cash. My health has been on and off of late. Leaving tomorrow to go home to spend a few days with my parents and see a doctor finally. Find out something maybe for once.

In the last couple months also i've noticed that people no longer can laugh about a lot of things everyones straight up serious about everything, oh well. Also apparently third world hunger, global warming, war and other things have gone to the bottom of the list of things that we really need to take care of. Apparently wolves have become number one.

Gotta love them people who text threat you in chats also "If she heard this she'd kill you" i'm so sure that person would so kill me. Too much lawls there.

People are mad at me for what I say, hell i'm just sayin my opinion and what's on my mind. You don't have to read it or listen to it. Hell you don't like it you can go fly a kite. Can't take a joke, bite my left nut. Life isn't supose to be one big rush or stress out and I see these 17 year olds flipping out and runnin around like a chicken with there head cut off worrying about things. At 17 I never worried about anything and that's how it should be, but time moves on and things change. Oh well.

I'm amazed at the price of gas these last weeks also been 75.9 to 81.9 which is extremely low for this time of year, its almost bringing back memories of the old days.

I thought I was going out the window...

Last night at 9:30pm I felt like shit. My neck was killing me and I had a pretty bad headache. So I went to bed and tried to sleep it off like usual with the help of some meds, asprin or tylenol.

At 2:30am everything gets worse, as suddenly I get hot sweats feeling like i'm standing on the sun, I proceed to dry heave a couple times and then catch my breathe. This happened about 3 times over the course of roughly 3 to 4 hours apart.

Aside from that also I felt dizzy as all hell, I thought that this was the end right there. It wasn't fun, and my chest is not in a great mood after the heaves.

I think it might time to consider a retreat and go back home to visit my doctor. Stay there and get things sorted out.

I don't think i've ever been this scared.

Another Empty Monday

Well woke up late this afternoon, its been nice to sleep in, in a way but not so good in other ways as i'm unemployed. Woke up and searched the web for jobs. Not a whole lot in this city or any place for that matter.

Found some jobs though finally and tweaked my cover letter etc and sent them to them. Waiting for a reply from Microage to see if I get the job, I have a feeling my buddy Tom or someone else will beat me out for the job. I applied to some automotive warehouse for a job as well doing inventory etc for $11 to $14 an hour which seems alright. 32 hours a week. It will do to pay the bills.

I'm thinking about moving to Thunder Bay as well. I found a job offer with Nortek Computers there for $9 to $13 an hr. I figured i'd apply and see where that job goes.

Spent the night hangin with my buddy marc. Went and played an hour of pool at tophat then went to the mall to check out some stuff and he wanted some food. So we tooled around there. Went to Tim Hortons on Bay st. for coffee around 8:15pm it was dead when we showed up. Soon as we sat down everyone just poured in, it was odd. Looked around for a friend who works there, think I saw her, not sure. Oh well, shot the shit with my buddy marc about good old times in high school etc, basketball and other stuff.

Drove him home and now i'm here writting this up. Just kind of sitting around waiting for someone to call me about a job, so I have a lot of free time on my hands to do stuff. Yeah, well time to play some socom online.

It Ends Tonight

Well today was a rocky ride for me. Woke up at 4am feeling like shit and giving the porcelean gods a few offerings then stumbling back to bed only to wake up at 8:10am, I had to be at work for 8:30am.

Showed up a little late but it was understandable because I explained things before. Then work was just crazy, lots of systems coming in for repairs and it seems a lot of systems didn't want to co-operate today. Had two hard drives die and two notebooks die. So there's a fair amount of work ahead tomorrow and I have to figure out how to take apart these laptops as i've never done it before.

Felt lightheaded again this morning almost didn't go to work but I needed the money and needed to find out if I get my time off as well, which is supose to be Wed, Thurs, Fri of the week after the 22nd. I'm only getting a week off of work to spend with the family but it should be good.

I'm still looking for a doctor as well, trying to get my friend to pull some favours for me and talk with his doc. I really need to see about this whole lightheaded shit going on with my neck and everything. This isn't a good thing.

Made chicken and herb rice with chicken in it for dinner tonight, it was pretty good along with a glass of ice tea. Just watching Poker Superstars III on Rogers Sportsnet. Get to sleep early again tonight. Things are working well at work though, I get along with everyone and I enjoy my job even though it does have its frustrations at times.

Got a card from Sedyah today in the mail much thanks as well, I would like to be down in Suds for the party but with my health I'd rather not risk it right now. Just incase something happens. Paycheck will be slim soon as I'm getting three days off but do get paid for xmas and boxing day which is nice. Thinking of buying a new tv after xmas, we have a nice one at the shop made by Acer it runs tv nice and makes a pretty nice computer screen.

Will see how the cards flop after xmas though.

Still not feeling 100%

Went into the emergency yesterday for a CT scan to check my head see if there was anything wrong. They put me on migrane meds again as part of the procedure so now i'm groggy as hell again. Things haven't changed though and they found nothing on the CT scan.

I don't know what else is wrong the only thing I could think is that its a pinched nerve in my neck or a pulled muscle or something of that sorts. I'm just worried with christmas coming up etc. Cause if I don't show up for work soon I may not get my time off. I've called in twice for work these last two days. I just wanna be home for xmas and be okay and everything.

If i'm going to die sometime soon i'd like to know so that I can atleast let everyone know who's close to me that I care about them and love them. It just scares me to think I could go so soon. Frankly medical has gone down the tubes I think. Who knows, all I know is that I feel tired lately and very light headed and i've been getting a good amount of sleep.

Who knows. That's all I have to say. This year has been a very twisting one. If I live to the new year I hope that 2007 is better and that I can be more happy than I was in 2006. I am somewhat religious in secret and do wish that someone up there will keep my arse alive and well. For now I will get some xtra sleep and hope that this spell of non feeling goes away. Cause being a computer tech I need both my arms functioning properly and this kind of spooks me.

Another Migrane...

Friday night was lost to a migrane....lovely. I had to leave work early and come home, left at 3:15pm and came home undressed and went straight to bed. I've slept from 3:30pm till 9:30am saturday morning. I feel better now but things are still a little weak.

I lost feeling in the right side of my body again, my right arm and part of my legs went numb for a bit not heavily numb but that I couldn't feel or sense things. Such as positioning on the floor as I was walking or if I gripped something like a stair rail or a piece of equipment. Also my right side of my face slurred. I don't know what causes these to come on so suddenly. It scares me sometimes.

I think it may have something to do with a plate in my neck. I really wish it was easier to get a doctor in this city, i'd rather not go to emergency unless its an emergency. Everything always seems to get weird with my body right around christmas though it seems.

Time to make something to eat anyways, need something to eat I haven't eatten since yesterday morning. Maybe my sinuses are causing the problem. I'm no doctor though.

Wow week went by fast...

Well it went by very fast. Work has kept me busy along with hanging with good friends from college who are back in town. Got xmas shopping done which was starting to become a pain in the ass but its done now so that's finished. Work is good, love the job and the people I work with. Its an awesome enviroment.

Plenty of snow flying now it actually is winter and not the weird weather of warmth we were having in November. My car has stood up nicely to the elements though so far in its first year of winter so far which i'm content with as the car I own is kind of old.

The pay has been good at work but I wish there were benefits that's the only thing missing. Oh well that's just a small stick in the road that I can work around. Gotta book my A+ test tomorrow, get that written before the stupid people at CompTIA change there test up.

As for other things in life and internet related. I lawls at the fact that people chew that they can't deal with there parents having sex and hearing it. Hey they own the place and make the rules, they wanna fuck it up there allowed to, they pay the bills and put the shit on the table. Sometimes we all need to just get away. Also more lawls with people chewing about art theft on deviantart etc. This is the internet, it happens. If you don't want people to steal your megabytes then don't post it online. Not hard, no need to get all whiney and start interwebz drama.

Well tomorrow is friday, another weekend. Should be fun and I get paid tomorrow. Mmmmm money. Tomorrow shall be busy at work, have to install a lot of mobo's and processors etc. Should eat up a fair amount of time at work and make the day go by fast. Anyways i'm off to bed as work will come soon enough.


Why is that every great woman I meet that I may have something in common with has to be a thousand miles away.

Why does distance have to be such a huge variable...

Stolen From A Bird Named Scani....

1. Explain what ended your last relationship?
Woman was too damn clingy and came from a broken family and was very loud as well.

2. When was the last time you shaved?
Monday morning at 10:15am cause my side burns were bothering me so had to have things lookin right and not stupid.

3. What were you doing this morning at 8 a.m.?
I was sleeping and dreaming of a better life in my warm bed.

4. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?
I was driving home in my 1995 Toyota Camry in the rain and listening to some country music station cause that's all my radio picks up lately.

5. Are you any good at math?
I blow at math horribly, besides the basics.

6. Your prom night?
Dancing the night away with my girlfriend and bouncing between two girlfriends one an ex-gf and the other my current as I had feelings and at the end of the night I felt kind of shitty.

7. Do you have any famous ancestors?
yeah my grandpa Heinze was kind of famous you could say, he was a damn good chef.

8. Have you had to take a loan out for school?
Yeah $40,000 over 4 years. I thank my parents everyday for paying it off.

9. Do you know the words to the song on your myspace profile?
Who needs myspace, its more like a waste of space.

10. Last thing received in the mail?
my credit card company sent me some bullshit.

11. How many different beverages have you had today?
Ice tea, chocolate milk and tim horton's double/double twice.

12. Do you ever leave messages on people's answering machine?
Yeah all the time.

13. Who did you lose your CONCERT virginity to?
Our Lady Peace

14. Do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach?
Yeah its fun to watch the waves take it away.

15. What's the most painful dental procedure you've had?
A cavity I had filled the damn dentist poked a nerve and I nearly ripped the arm off the dentist chair.

16. What is out your back door?
Back door? lawls, I live in a basement but I guess you could say a hallway of sorts and some stairs, a shoe rack full of shoes and a green bin for recyclables.

17. Any plans for Friday night?
Food, D&D possibly, hanging with friends. Its the usual shit. It helps me stay a little sane.

18. Do you like what the ocean does to your hair?
Never been to the ocean so I have no idea.

19. Have you ever received one of those big tins of 3 different popcorns?
Nope but I wish I did. Mmmm popcorn.

20. Have you ever been to a planetarium?
Never been to one but they seem cool.

21. Do you re-use towels after you shower?
Yeah, for a couple days then I wash em cause they smell.

22. Some things you are excited about?
Possible woman in my life again, and I may feel love again.

23. What is your favorite flavor of JELLO?
Vanilla jello pudding is my fav.

24. Describe your keychain(s)?
I have a Dell On Call keychain attached to a hiking harness belt thing with my I love New York keychain on it with my car key on it and another keychain with my apartment keys on it.

25. Where do you keep your change?
In two retro 70s dishes in my bedroom on my armoir

26. When was the last time you spoke in front of a large group of people?
Intuit Town Hall at work.

27. What kind of winter coat do you own?
Its yellow with black shoulders, it kind of reminds me of the jackets the power rangers used to wear in one of the series.

28. What was the weather like on your graduation day?
It was sunny but not too warm on all my grad days.

29. Do you sleep with the door to your room open or closed?
Wide open because i'm the only one who lives here.